venison by evening

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 06:18:21 GMT

"It will puzzle you when I tell you that I thought Justine great, in a sort of way. There are forms of greatness, you know, which when not applied in art or religion make havoc of ordinary life. Her gift was misapplied in being directed toward love. Certainly she was bad in many ways, but they were all small ways. Nor can I say that she harmed nobody. But those she harmed most she made fruitful. She expelled people from their old selves. It was bound to hurt, and many mistook the nature of the pain she inflicted. Not I.' And smiling his well-known smile, in which sweetness was mixed with an an inexpressible bitterness, he repeated softly under his breath the words: 'Not I.'

from 'Justine', Lawrence Durrell

it's very very good for me to read fiction... some people become better with small doses of reality, but me, i stagnate. why-ever do i let myself drown in everydayness when lawrence durrell is here to cure all ills?

i've lost my cat, literally... misplaced her. i'm afraid she's been eaten by an eagle.

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 03:59:57 GMT

if i were brave, i would write the poem called 'the poor bastard who doesn't know me'
and if he was brave he would read it and open his heart like a lotus flower.

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 03:33:58 GMT

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

ee cummings

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 21:30:23 GMT

i wonder if a book can cure me of inhibition? i am always inhibited. i am almost 30 and still inhibited, and tired. it's possible that inhibition hurts others as much as it causes me aggravation.

i feel very strongly about not writing bad prose at this moment in time. i am just so grateful to have a job. there are things i want to say but can't seem to expel.

i may create a new journal soon, i feel a bit waterlogged. i'll let you know when this happens.

VAL D'ES 1932

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 19:11:06 GMT

Gerda WEGENER

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 19:09:53 GMT

PEM 1932

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 01:33:36 GMT

Henry SEBASTIAN, 1932

Sat, 28 Feb 2009 04:33:20 GMT

from the french magazine Le Sourire

...jealous?

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 22:13:20 GMT

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 19:32:21 GMT

i met someone who makes me want to take care of myself.

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 20:07:03 GMT

goodness. i can't help but think there is significantly more snarky (& i hate that word) flaminess on lj than there was in 2004. i'm 94% neurotic but still take issue with barbarism... it's only the internet.

Mon, 23 Feb 2009 06:12:38 GMT

wow... i tried to be very honest with this test.

My Personality


Neuroticism	94
Extraversion	7
Openness to Experience	94
Agreeableness	44
Conscientiousness	7

You rarely get angry and it takes a lot to make you angry, however you feel strong cravings and urges that you have difficulty resisting. You tend to prefer short-term pleasures and rewards over long-term consequences. You tend not to talk much and prefer to let others control the activities of groups. Generally you are not considered to be an emotional person, however you are aware of and in touch with your emotions. You are tenderhearted and compassionate, feeling the pain of others vicariously and are easily moved to pity, however you believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You find contracts, rules, and regulations overly confining and are sometimes seen as unreliable or even irresponsible by others.

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Promise Rings

PREJELAN, 1915

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 04:06:40 GMT

Bernard BOUTET DE MONVEL

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 04:04:38 GMT

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 05:39:15 GMT

Wed, 18 Feb 2009 02:22:30 GMT

really good deals on wall art ===> natural history prints, maps, photos

Tue, 17 Feb 2009 04:51:05 GMT

Sun, 15 Feb 2009 07:35:21 GMT

Sat, 14 Feb 2009 07:12:15 GMT

i feel like my I.Q. goes down periodically... mostly in tune with my eating habits.

dancing veggies embroidered towel...

ZIEGFELD FOLLIES NUDE PHOTO *ALFRED CHENEY JOHNSTON* 8x10 reprint

chloe sunglasses #2119 in navy

still contemplating this reprint...

Fri, 13 Feb 2009 07:24:07 GMT

i am so drawn to horrible things... i want to staple myself to horror and become wise... i can't help but think we can learn so much from what is awful.

may we learn from what eats us

Fri, 13 Feb 2009 06:57:26 GMT

Fri, 13 Feb 2009 05:23:50 GMT

Maurice Milliere, 1918

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 04:53:25 GMT

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 04:39:41 GMT

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 02:05:11 GMT

please join art_vintage & post so i am not the only one posting there...