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[19 Apr 2009|11:03pm]
"It will puzzle you when I tell you that I thought Justine great, in a sort of way. There are forms of greatness, you know, which when not applied in art or religion make havoc of ordinary life. Her gift was misapplied in being directed toward love. Certainly she was bad in many ways, but they were all small ways. Nor can I say that she harmed nobody. But those she harmed most she made fruitful. She expelled people from their old selves. It was bound to hurt, and many mistook the nature of the pain she inflicted. Not I.' And smiling his well-known smile, in which sweetness was mixed with an an inexpressible bitterness, he repeated softly under his breath the words: 'Not I.'

from 'Justine', Lawrence Durrell

it's very very good for me to read fiction... some people become better with small doses of reality, but me, i stagnate. why-ever do i let myself drown in everydayness when lawrence durrell is here to cure all ills?

i've lost my cat, literally... misplaced her. i'm afraid she's been eaten by an eagle.
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[11 Apr 2009|08:56pm]
if i were brave, i would write the poem called 'the poor bastard who doesn't know me'
and if he was brave he would read it and open his heart like a lotus flower.
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[11 Apr 2009|08:32pm]


i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

ee cummings
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[04 Apr 2009|01:59pm]
i wonder if a book can cure me of inhibition? i am always inhibited. i am almost 30 and still inhibited, and tired. it's possible that inhibition hurts others as much as it causes me aggravation.

i feel very strongly about not writing bad prose at this moment in time. i am just so grateful to have a job. there are things i want to say but can't seem to expel.

i may create a new journal soon, i feel a bit waterlogged. i'll let you know when this happens.
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VAL D'ES 1932 [04 Apr 2009|12:10pm]
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Gerda WEGENER [04 Apr 2009|12:09pm]
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PEM 1932 [20 Mar 2009|06:32pm]
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Henry SEBASTIAN, 1932 [27 Feb 2009|08:29pm]


+4... from the french magazine Le SourireCollapse )
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...jealous? [25 Feb 2009|02:11pm]
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[25 Feb 2009|11:30am]
i met someone who makes me want to take care of myself.
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[24 Feb 2009|12:02pm]
goodness. i can't help but think there is significantly more snarky (& i hate that word) flaminess on lj than there was in 2004. i'm 94% neurotic but still take issue with barbarism... it's only the internet.
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[22 Feb 2009|10:11pm]
wow... i tried to be very honest with this test.


My Personality
Neuroticism
94
Extraversion
7
Openness to Experience
94
Agreeableness
44
Conscientiousness
7
You rarely get angry and it takes a lot to make you angry, however you feel strong cravings and urges that you have difficulty resisting. You tend to prefer short-term pleasures and rewards over long-term consequences. You tend not to talk much and prefer to let others control the activities of groups. Generally you are not considered to be an emotional person, however you are aware of and in touch with your emotions. You are tenderhearted and compassionate, feeling the pain of others vicariously and are easily moved to pity, however you believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You find contracts, rules, and regulations overly confining and are sometimes seen as unreliable or even irresponsible by others.

Take a personality test from LearnMyself

Promise Rings

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PREJELAN, 1915 [20 Feb 2009|08:05pm]


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Bernard BOUTET DE MONVEL [20 Feb 2009|08:03pm]
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[19 Feb 2009|09:38pm]
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[17 Feb 2009|06:20pm]
really good deals on wall art ===> natural history prints, maps, photos
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[16 Feb 2009|08:50pm]
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[14 Feb 2009|11:33pm]


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[13 Feb 2009|11:04pm]
i feel like my I.Q. goes down periodically... mostly in tune with my eating habits. things i bought this week to fill the void...Collapse )
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[12 Feb 2009|11:21pm]
i am so drawn to horrible things... i want to staple myself to horror and become wise... i can't help but think we can learn so much from what is awful.

may we learn from what eats us
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